It’s a crazy thing how times passes you by. They tell you to live in the moment. Well, that’s certainly what I have been doing. Living in the moment. You see, it goes with this whole, ‘let future self worry about it’ (‘How I met your mother’ reference). Worry. I’m not sure if it’s even that. Motivation? No. It’s more like – you want to forget about it and numb yourself and watch the next episode of Boardwalk Empire.
As you all know, those who follow me, this seems to be a common thing. A pattern is forming here. I get into a habit, but then I jump out of that habit, back in and out again. The magic word here? Commitment.
I guess I’m a commitaphobe. Through and through. Ha’, that’s a clever way of putting it.
Oh, and thanks again. Sorry that I have been quiet, I do read your work, and I love reading it too.
Why am I not writing you ask? Well, you see, it probably has a lot to do with writer’s block, and as you can probably tell, it happens A LOT! I guess you could say I lose the motivation. I go in and out of bouts of laziness or I have depression. The reason probably has a lot to do with all of the above, but I also think it has a lot to do with self doubt.
One of the reasons why I started this blog was to motivate myself, to professionalise my writing, and to get my poetry “out there” and feel as if I can actually, in fact, write (not just write, but write well). Sometimes the doubt sinks in of course, and you can tell when I lose the ‘courage’ to post such personal pieces. It is not so much that it is personal really, all of my writing is, in fact, I feel quite liberated in expressing my ideas.
This particular post is a ‘whatever’ post. The ‘whatever’ post is a way to move past self-doubt and just ‘give-it-a-go’ whether you like it or not (there has got to be a reason why I have the 200 + followers, right?). Meaning that ‘in the name of Merlin’ (Harry Potter reference, if you don’t know it you’re not my friend) I shall write, damnit! And write whether it is good or just ordinary.
Let the ‘whatever’ post be the blogger’s doctrine and let us not worry about the opinions of others but encourage ourselves to ‘give it a go’ and write. In fact, write everyday if you can. Life’s too short.