I like this time of year. You feel warm. You feel fuzzy. Somehow the light shines through the end of the tunnel and you rekindle with your motivation. I wonder how long it lasts? Is it really only because of the extra Vitamin D that we find ourselves such the merrier?
Hmm. Maybe not.
Maybe things just have an ‘expiry’ date, and somehow, things reborn. Winter is just winter. Spring comes around again.
Today has been a mixed week. A combination of being somewhat lonely and somewhat stifled. It is that dreading sense as a teacher, that one day, you’re going to have to face ‘them’ again. Yeah, I mean the kids. Today was my first day back and it wasn’t so bad. Actually it was a lot of fun. I also took on a lot more responsibility as a teacher.
I had a weird day.
Weird… in a good way.
Now, one of the reasons why, I figured, why I haven’t been writing a lot of poetry these days is because I haven’t been reading a lot of poetry. I used to just read the classics. Yes, a lot of Coleridge, Blake, Dickinson. Nothing modern or recent has really caught my attention.
Do any of you have recommendations? I would love to have a read…
Why am I not writing you ask? Well, you see, it probably has a lot to do with writer’s block, and as you can probably tell, it happens A LOT! I guess you could say I lose the motivation. I go in and out of bouts of laziness or I have depression. The reason probably has a lot to do with all of the above, but I also think it has a lot to do with self doubt.
One of the reasons why I started this blog was to motivate myself, to professionalise my writing, and to get my poetry “out there” and feel as if I can actually, in fact, write (not just write, but write well). Sometimes the doubt sinks in of course, and you can tell when I lose the ‘courage’ to post such personal pieces. It is not so much that it is personal really, all of my writing is, in fact, I feel quite liberated in expressing my ideas.
This particular post is a ‘whatever’ post. The ‘whatever’ post is a way to move past self-doubt and just ‘give-it-a-go’ whether you like it or not (there has got to be a reason why I have the 200 + followers, right?). Meaning that ‘in the name of Merlin’ (Harry Potter reference, if you don’t know it you’re not my friend) I shall write, damnit! And write whether it is good or just ordinary.
Let the ‘whatever’ post be the blogger’s doctrine and let us not worry about the opinions of others but encourage ourselves to ‘give it a go’ and write. In fact, write everyday if you can. Life’s too short.
It seems too long really since I last wrote a post on everyday life. I’m not big on the whole blogging my day-to-day activities, but since I spoke to you all about my accidents I may as well give you a little update.
The ankle is all better and thank you to all of those who commented and sent me their best wishes. It was really appreciated. The ankle is fine, and doing pretty well considering the 7 week long ‘cast on’ period. During its ‘cast off’ days, it’s a little stiff, sometimes a little sore, but getting stronger and stronger every day.
And I have a new car! Since a tree wrote off my last car, and being in a cast for 7 weeks I haven’t had a lot of freedom, so to have my cast removed and getting a brand new car all in the one week felt amazing. Funny how you learn to appreciate the small things in life when things are taken away from you. It gives you a little perspective.
So Dianne is the replacement and she is fitting in very well, my little Hyundai i30.
Oh yeah, NaNoWriMo. I’m actually doing it this time! I don’t feel so left out now. Already 10,000 words down. So, I might actually get a book out of this. I’ll keep you updated on that at least but I won’t be writing any short stories for a while, I’ll still update with the poetry but no stories.
If you did notice, I took down the story ‘Dead Girl – Part 1’ since I only really finished the story last week I thought since I haven’t had the time to edit lately because of NaNoWriMo I will edit it later. I’ll separate it in parts like I normally do, but with a few days in between so you do not have to wait for too long.
Cheers all, I hope you are all doing very well and thank you to all of you who have supported this blog.